May Day, May Day

It's 10:25 AM here in what used to be Mama's bedroom. Same desk, same chair probably as old as I am but still in good shape. So, it's May Day but really no more than any regular day to me for obvious reasons. I'm home today though with a slight feeling of unease: light headache.
Was surfing through the net when I cam across the Unreasonable Institute application for an entrepreneurial program. Went through and must confess I was drawn to it but I ditched the application midway. Yeah, I had to be honest with myself. The purpose for which the application is meant really does have little connection to what I'm about now specifically in terms of Asa or Geniuses Factory. If any, there's but a wider connection in terms of what cause we'r seeking to address with our product. True, we're tryna define a new business but it's not so much about addressing burning societal problems at least for now. Rather, our bottomline is to define a business model, acceptability and feedback to further refine our product. In fact, now's not the time for seeking investments beyond what we have courtesy of the CChub. Again, I just want to stick with what's in the works. True, I have some ideas in respect of addressing possible needs in Agriculture using the same underlying technological approach which I'm skilled at. But the way I have it on paper as defined in my journal, even the steps being taken today in view of asa does add up.
Last hour or so has been spent reviewing some news on naijastories which leaves me wondering where I stand in respect of my writing interest. True, I've solely always written for fun (like this blog here) with no real commercial angle defined (at least, not yet). With naijastories, I sought to sample the opinion of a wider audience and it's been helpful for honing my skills. Also, I sought to place myself in a position to keep abreast of opportunities in the literary space which is also being achieved. There wasn't really any attempt at fighting for much given my skills are at best for self-fulfillment as opposed to what I seek out of my other interest particularly IT skills. And so, when I look at naiajstories and see that I haven't put out a piece in the last 4 months or so, it's first a concern that calls for a snappy reflection as to what the rot issue is. Then, as I sit back reflecting, I see it's more to do with my core pursuits. Simply put, writing is not one skill or interest I've taken really seriously. If it was, I'd been on naijastories like everyday reading, commenting, writing, reviewing and putting out regularly to rank up my points. But the reality is that more of my time is spent on other areas of interest with entrepreneurial dimensions to what I can make out of it. And so, it's been asa all the way even without a clear sense of where the money will come from. Rather, I have a number of limitless possibilities that can come out of it which is one of the fuels for my endeavour today. True, there's every room to do as much as I delight in given the freedom that entrepreneurship offers but that being said, the reality is that one has t still prioritize. But looking deeper, that's not to say that I haven't been doing my thing to keep up with my interest. I still maintain a file of random write-ups that I readily look to for submissions in applications as with the ongoing Kachifo Creative Workshop. All I need do if I can't find new inspirations for a new piece is dig up one, edit and submit. It's also the reason I've been a little reluctant with putting up just about all my piece for publication. As I've come to realize, some openings call for original unpublished pieces so the foregoing line serves its purpose. In the end though, there's a need to ensure balance as I can't simply be putting out works only for openings as this especially if I'm to be considered a writer even in the vague sense of it. Well, I have some related ideas to where my writing interest meets my IT computing skills too. Though still a bit vague, there's a connection to asa too in that the ongoing prototype can help answer that question or clarify the vagueness. In all, even as I write this, I see a lot of things tied to asa. Maybe I'm placing too much attention on it or better still, overemphasizing its relevance with connections to just about anything as I have lately but if it helps with providing a basis for motivation then it's a worthy cause.
Financial gratification is kinda off the radar as regards asa at least for now. True, it helps to keep it at bay if I'm to enjoy the motivation to keep doing what I am today. In fact, it's so much that the bottomline for the present phase has little to do with financial gratification. Rather, I say again, it's more to do with defining clarity as to a business model (is there a business to be made out of this?), acceptability (how receptive is the target audience to this? who exactly is the target audience or who ranks high as its target audience?) and lastly, partners (who shares in our idea? who is in the business of making the most of what we have for possible collaboration in business etc?). That's as explicit as I can define the bottomline behind asa's present undertaking but the good news is that I have a clear case as to what I hope to derive from the investment in time, money and efforts. Even at that, baby steps best define the quality of steps we are taking. But still, I'm learning to despise not this baby steps. Also, embracing the steps being taken by others as I see a coupla competitive products hitting the market attesting to the fact that ours is a society of truly smart people who are exploring new ideas and stopping at nothing even with the obvious societal odds. Me, I'm stopping at nothing too o. Screw the competition, it's the least of my concerns. As good a thing it is to be in the know as to what others are doing especially in my space of interest, it means little to me in terms of how it imapcts my present pursuits. Case in point, I'll still put myself and by extension my works out there when its ready. At this point, some words come to mind. One, Zubie mentioned to me how he's been able to make a sugnificant impact on the tech community and beyond even though he's not the best of programmers. Yeah, if you spend time in places like the cchub, you'll agree with the hommie. Loom too much at these nerds around and your confidence may become victim to self-induced psychological intimidation. I say this cos I've been a victim or rather find myself a victim once in a while. But Glory to God for as the winner that I am, I take a step back, crawl into my solitude and rediscover my true self. Just this weekend, it meant getting a new excercise book and writing out pages upon pages of what truly defines me from the bottom of my heart. From my strengths, weaknesses, accomplishments to even asa itself, I wrote in clear terms my honest opinion about them. 
Time to bounce now. Here's to Greatness as is on the way for me. Amen.